trying to keep going
Thanks to the Wacky Nekkid Neighbors, I now have two full beds of strawberries plants rooting into the rich, crumbly dirt in my back yard.
I have been down. I get the blues, the mean reds, the woe is me tragic-tragics.Thank you again, Naked Sheep. Thanks for the rest of our lives. We love you guys.
I’m talking a rainbow of yarns, in cotton, mohair, angora, acrylic, everything under the sun. They’ve donated needles — straights and circular — patterns, half-finished projects, everything you could think of. Several knitters have stepped up to help.
Three other knitters want to start an afterschool club. To those of you (and you know who you are. And no, you probably aren’t even reading this blog) — to those of you who scoff and act like knitting doesn’t “count.” You’re wrong. It counts.
I’m starting to feel better already.
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WM, I heart you. Don’t forget, IOU. 2009!
Wow, that’s almost as cryptic as those text-messages the kids are all sending each other these days.
March 24th, 2008 | #
Working backwards: Knitting does count. It counts alot. Kids need to learn to do things with their hands and brains that uses their creative side. What you are doing is HUGE. Keep up the good work.
I envy you having summers off with your kids. I would have loved a job like that when my kids were smaller. Hell, I would like summers off now! Hope your volunteer deal goes to paid. Money helps.
Regarding the other. All I can say is I understand what it is like to be an adult who lost their childhood. It haunts you and affects you the rest of your life (or at least until you are 46 which is all the experience I have, so far). But you can take it, and with work and effort, probably use it as learning experience for your kids that will make them more well-balanced and rounded adults.
Email me if you want to talk. I have time now. I am not so busy and caught up in my own crap. I can be there.
March 24th, 2008 | #
OH…and strawberries (gardening) best therapy in the world.
March 24th, 2008 | #
WM you ARE coping–very well. It’s so good that you’re in touch with your feelings (instead of denying them) and that you know what coping strategies work AND YOU PUT THEM IN PRACTICE. Writing about what you feel is SO GOOD.
March 24th, 2008 | #
Vixen said it first, and better than I could. She does that, the Vixen. Anyway, I heart you and do you want to go to lunch sometime? Check yes or no. ((hug)) till I can give you the warm squishy real kind.
March 25th, 2008 | #
I’m always amazed at your strength.
March 25th, 2008 | #
Oh yes. This is normal as well. Please refer to the post where some incredibly smart person instructed you to start abusing prescriptions.
Seriously. What you’re doing here is good. Typing and thinking and writing uses lots of parts of your brain (especially when simultaneously yelling at children.) Process. You are processing and that is all good stuff. Just remember we all have dark days, some darker than others and in order to fully appreciate the sun, you must sometimes sit in the dark.
Jesus said to his disciples, “I go before you to prepare a home for you, my father’s house has many mansions.” The word mansions translated through the Greek better means, “dimensions.” Thinking of Heaven in this context gives one an understanding of it a little different than a big place in the sky. I think that Heaven is just beyond the veil of where we are now. Those who you love are still in the same house, just a different dimension and the love and connection that you had with them here in this place is still intact and still as real as it was.
Your father is without the pain that he lived with in this dimension. His spirit does not know the pain and suffering that his physical self held. And he is still with you, and still real–just beyond the veil.
March 25th, 2008 | #
Hey WM. If it were possible I’d come and fix you something really great to eat and give you the biggest hug, and then we’d sit and knit. My thoughts are with you.
Stephanie Pearl-McPhee is talking about how subversive (and life changing) knitting can be on her blog today. If you haven’t already, you should check it out.
http://www.yarnharlot.ca/blog/
March 25th, 2008 | #
Hey, you all — thank you for the wise words and the Internet lovin’. I’m feeling better already. Sick kid here — his fever came back — or I’d write more. What is with these random fevers? They’re as random and painful as the depressions and mood swings.
March 25th, 2008 | #
Oh WM. I’m sorry.
March 27th, 2008 | #